I was just scrolling through Tumblr and I came across this quote from Stephen King’s On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft

“The scariest moment is always just before you start”

This quote immediately spoke to me. I didn’t know if I wanted to write a blog post before I left for my trip; I actually still do not know if I will even end up publishing this. I don’t know how this post will turn out- you know, what kind of vibe it will radiate, but here I am, writing it anyway.

The reason why I didn’t know whether I wanted to write something about my trip before my trip starts is because it is finally hitting me. On Thursday, I said a teary goodbye to my Aunt’s and Uncle’s, on Friday night I finished my last shift at work and said goodbye to my work friends and on Saturday night I said goodbye to my friends from high school. I woke up this morning and realised that tonight will be my second last night in my own bed. I’ve realised that I am running out of time to start packing, and that I probably should start today. All of these factors have cumulatively made my mind vividly aware that I am leaving in a short couple of days; and I have realised that I am more scared than I have let myself and others think.

Another reason why I am hesitant to post this is because I have consciously realised that i’m unconsciously doing everything I can to avoid thinking about this trip in order to keep my emotions under control.

But, I have also realised that doing this is unhealthy because when it actually comes to the time to say my final farewells to my immediate family it will be even harder to be in control emotionally; and I know myself well enough to know that things tend to flow much more smoothly for myself when I am a in-control control freak.

Also, I wanted to be completely real and raw. This trip is a self-induced test for myself. I want to see how far I am able to push myself before I have a complete breakdown. If i’m not being 100% real and 100% raw with myself and with others, then this test is completely pointless because I will learn absolutely nothing.

And so we’ve come full circle. This quote:

“The scariest moment is always just before you start”

Why does it speak to me? Isn’t it obvious? The quote literally explains my exact emotions that I am currently facing- fear of something new. But it is also a reassurance that I am not the only human on this planet that feels these emotions, and therefore, I am not alone; and I find this unbelievably comforting.

Again. I know I am only travelling overseas and I know some people may think that I am overthinking or over exaggerating. But the whole reason that I am writing these posts is because I wish I had someone here- whether it is in real life or on the Internet- giving me advice from their own experiences and reassuring me that things may seem tough, but it’s all worth it.

The next time you hear from me on this blog I will most probably be in London; something that I am equally thrilled for and terrified of. This post may be a little delayed because I am still unsure whether I will end up publishing this or not; so for the record, I wrote this on January 29th 2017.

Also, I’m going to be trying to make little travel videos that will be uploaded to YouTube. I want to do this because I love filmmaking, I love documenting, I love having tangible memories, I want to show my family and friends my adventures, and I hope to encourage others to get bitten by the travel bug. I will also- hopefully- be avid posting on Instagram so follow me here.

Farewell Aussie-Land, and hello London-Town; I am so proud that I am finally in you!
Be good to me, please.

…(soz about the dirty innuendo)

Love always, Rac. xx

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Racquel Hardie
Racquel Hardie

A twenty-something Aussie girl with a love for exploring this world and telling her stories.

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